Sometimes it's the little things...

I just finished writing the big update with all the medical info and I guess I talked about how physically miserable Michelle has been, but this is tough for both of us emotionally too.  No matter how many books you read, people you talk to, or blogs you peruse, nothing can really prepare you for how emotionally trying it is to have a complicated pregnancy.  We have been so fortunate up until now that this pregnancy has been about as uncomplicated as a triplet pregnancy can be.  But now that we're in the complicated phase, it feels like the overall threshold for emotions is lowered.  A lot of the emotional stuff is closely tied to the physical though.  When Michelle physically feels miserable, she feels more down; when Michelle is hurting and down, I feel sad and helpless.  So we are thankful that she is feeling better now.  But it's funny how even when we're feeling better, little things can make your eyes start to leak. =)  Michelle read a nice comment on Facebook in response to one of my blog posts and started tearing up.  For me it was tonight when I went to the cafeteria.  It was pretty much deserted and I wandered around figuring out what to get Michelle for dinner (food service stops at 7 and we got the ok for her to eat at about 7:15) and see if there might be anything I could eat (gluten & cow dairy free) and felt like eating.  I got some pasta for Michelle, but was less than enthused about my option of salad and cold deli meats.  Anyway, I decided to just eat the little bit of kale salad I'd thrown in before we left this morning and call it good.  But as I was wandering I saw that they had candy and they even had peach rings, which is one of Michelle's favorite candies.  I was so excited to be able to get some for her as a special treat.  I put the bag under the dispenser and four peaches came out.  I tried and tried, but short of being the crazy person shaking and pounding on the machine, they just weren't coming.  This silly and stupid little failure almost brought me to tears.  I recovered, added some Swedish fish to the bag, and headed back to the room.

Shortly after I got back Michelle got up to use the bedside commode (no more walking to the bathroom allowed on the magnesium drip) and then just sat up on the edge of the bed for a bit.  We actually had like 20 minutes of uninterrupted time to just chat.  It was nice.  We talked about how we're both are still hoping to make it to 32 weeks with the babies still inside, but will take each day as a small victory.  We might be here the same amount of time either way because the earlier the babies come, the longer they'll be in the NICU and if the best case scenario doesn't happen, then we might be here keeping labor at bay until 34 or 35 weeks.  We're hoping for scenario number two if our "best case" doesn't happen.  We both have a feeling that the babies will be okay no matter what at this point, but the longer they stay in the better we'll feel.

Hopefully there will be no excitement tonight and maybe we'll both get a little sleep which will help us withstand this rollercoaster.  We've asked if they might be able to take the baby monitors off for the night and just put them back on if the contractions get worse; Still waiting on that answer...  On a positive note, the intensity and number of contractions does seem to be decreasing which is great news.  On a less great note, Michelle's had a few high blood pressure readings so now they are collecting all of her urine for the next 24 hours.  The resident didn't sound too concerned about the likelihood of pre-eclampsia, but with even two high readings in 6 hours they have to do the urine collection.  Hopefully that all comes back clear or that will change things once again, and not for the better.  So now we can start sending relaxing vibes to Michelle's uterus and circulatory system. =)

Here are a few pics...

Lots of "stuff" in this room!  You can see my blogging spot with the computer on it

My bed for the weekend.  Sooooo much better than sleeping on the couch in here!

24hr pee collection has to be on ice which I think is funny!